the shy warps our world

into shapes we don’t ever recognise

talking with friends

people supposedly know me well

maybe a year or ten

shyness came up in conversation

& I said I have some of this

which amused them lots

I tried to explain

how I learned to compensate

found ways to bridge the divide

between them & me

but but but they went…

do you not notice

how hard I find it to maintain

eye contact? I asked

that I can teach

but not do public speaking?

how distant I am in new company?

oh they chorused

we put that down to you

being a shifty fucker

though we’ve learned to trust you

having learned over time

you tend say what you mean

y’know?

& no I didn’t

having retreated again

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