begin to breathe again

twenty years

is about average

before I really let them go

after a month

I can begin to breathe again

six eating is no longer a chore

maybe a year down the line

my thinking gets easier

interrupted thoughts

sleeping starts

coming on fine

five years & we’re moving along

by then

usually

I’ve found a proper friend

& ten

I can manage

not to run away

if I see you somewhere

fifteen if you get mentioned

I can hold the blush down

talk about them past tense

begin figuring what really happened

how much was you being mean

was me failing to understand

& finally twenty

I can talk to you

look you in the eye

treat you like another person

not want

to go home & cry

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