I felt I’d let go
lost my hold on the edge
of living
times
I cried with laughter
all they way there & back
& times
of nothing
head full of grey
eyes empty of horizon
times waiting for dawn
to finger the sky
open up for another try
at living
the dream
close to that edge
that I never wanted to contemplate
been there before
& there is nothing here
can make me go back again
not that I care for me
about the looking over
seeing an end to all of this
but those left behind
can never understand
why those choices
feel close to the divine
though I know love is not there
when nothing much matters anymore
seems to be a struggle
clutching at the air
& if I give up now
on all of you
all of me
all I would be
is one more said
they cared
& let go
for flying into the wind
