in the saltwater gained

promises made

written somewhere

on lost papers

in the saltwater gained

who I’d be

what I would do

how things

our lives would change

& now

they lie forgotten

just another set

of cold nights

lying alone

semi drunk prayers

drifting into dead air

for lost lovers

half-forgotten friends

sulky solemn things we say

& the promises made

driftwood & sand

on the currents of another life

our fading days

making promises

something

I said I would never do

making promises

along our way

I let go of you

tearing breaking apart

everything I’d said done

& said I would never do

you looked at me

beyond sad

beyond understanding

not the person

you thought I was

& that was the problem

far as I could see

I had reached out for you

too many times too often

found you not there

preoccupied inside

by your own thoughts

too far away

to come to me

promises

I would promise

to do anything

make the changes

to suit you more

(to you & You & you)

be the man you wanted

grow up some

shave the beard

grow the beard

anything

change the style

of my clothes

wanderings

work to bring in money

move town

& only later

as the pain cleared away

those changes

would never have stuck anyway

those promises I was making

were only to stop the pain

no matter what I said

at the time